For the first time in a long time I'm feeling real hope. It's been a crazy year, to call it an emotional roller-coaster would be an understatement.
Crappy, miserable, demanding, stressful, thankless job is finished. I invested too much of myself into an organisation that didn't deserve it - I will not be making that mistake again.
I am extremely thankful to have continued working through the past year and I'm looking forward to a new adventure. This year I'm investing in myself, new job is going well, I've reduced my hours, I'm adding to my professional qualifications and I'm taking time out for myself - I've been a bit naughty and I've been booking holidays, it's sheer desperate need for something to look forward to and I really hope I wont have to cancel, nothing fancy a lodge in Cumbria, a camping pod in Devon and a long weekend with the bestie.
I love my kids dearly but I've had no let up, hubby has worked through as normal, I've worked but from home, I was out of the house for 2 hours at the weekend, alone for the first time since before Christmas, I felt like I had been on holiday, We're ready for the schools to open again as soon as it's safe, I feel for every one trying to home school, most of the time it's crappy, miserable, demanding, stressful and thankless and thank god for David Attenborough, I've lost count of the number of times I've uttered the words, be quiet, put blue planet on and learn something when they've been bickering and I've made them go in separate rooms. I'm going to need to hire a math tutor this year as soon as I'm able but other than that I don't think there is lasting damage to their education, eldest is now determined she is going to be a marine biologist.
The daffodils are poking through and I've got some more to get in the ground they might not flower now until next year but it's worth a shot! Day off today and tomorrow, I'm going to try and spend it in the garden.
